Exam results, where you at?!

Serving you another update on my, lately, rather exciting life. I was at the hospital twice this week, again, my gran had the last two checkups there. It turned out her health condition is getting better and she's doing surprisingly well after what she's been through in the past 3 months. I also got to know the majority of paramedics and nurses, which comes in handy while waiting in the line for 5 hours. Today I actually met a cool paramedic who happens to adore Suits just like me and pretty much every other series I watch. I was impressed that he instantly knew which series I was referring to when I explained to him why I chose to study law. Oh, the perks of accompanying my gran to her checkups *winks*

I finally cut my hair. Please, applaud me. I was planning on going to the hairdresser for a month and I managed to do it this week. I'd say it's a pretty big difference, I got rid of at least 10 cm of my hair so I am now officially a squishy-headed mushroom. Just kidding, but my hair is chin length with a side fringe and I remind myself of a mushroom. Apparently, I look much younger now, which may cause me some problems, because most people still identifies me as a minor, when I am in fact almost 21. Y'all gonna be jelly when I hit 60 and I'm gonna look like I'm 40! So this paramedic I mentioned before said I don't look like a kid and I actually felt pretty damn good, but then I went to the shop, and since it's the first school day today, the cashier asked me how was my first school day (she thought I was 16). No need to say my confidence from before went away pretty damn quick. I still have to show my ID when I go out to buy some alcohol, so I shouldn't be surprised at all. I also treated myself to a new phone and I am very satisfied with it. Microsoft all the way (sorry iFruit loverz).

Most importantly, I STILL DON'T KNOW THE RESULTS OF MY EU LAW EXAM! I'm probably the most impatient person ever so it's driving me crazy. I've been checking the uni website every day since Friday and I get pissed off every time I see an empty space instead of my grade! Imagine me flip out in case I fail. Not a pretty picture. 

Regarding law school, I am kind of a mess right now. I just can't get myself to study and I don't know what the actual f**k is going on. I am now very behind with studying and I'll have to be pretty damn hard-working if I want to finish the book (at least). I could use a handout, a summary or whatever shorter and simplified version of it, but I honestly don't like studying from that, because I don't get the whole detailed picture I want. All or nothing, even if it takes more time. One thing I hate is going to an oral exam unprepared. It's a paradox, I can't get myself to study soon enough, but at the same time, I wanna know everything or at least enough to get a decent grade.

I actually wrote this post instead of starting my study session. I'm in trouble but at least I had something to tell. Peace out *mockingjay whistle*

Rant

Today was my last day at the seaside. It went by so quickly, I wish I could stay there for at least a week longer and chill. Haven't studied for shit, of course, but I tried. I even took my book to the beach but kids were screaming everywhere, not only in front of my porch at midnight.

I went to see my grandma who's in a nursing home and was very ill for the past 3 months and she is doing okay. Still not sure if I'm glad I saw my crush after quite a long time or not because I thought I got rid of annoying emotions and thoughts that were interrupting my study routine through the whole semester, but apparently, I'm crushing even more now... I'm an emotional wreck if I combine everything with being stressed due to my finals. Maybe being in a relationshit just isn't for me atm or you really can't handle law school and boyfriend at the same time like I hear so often, idk.

Excuse-zee-mwa for a pessimistic post today but I just feel like getting my thoughts out and see if I feel any better because honestly, I kinda feel sad and anxious out of nowhere. I have so much on my mind lately and I tend to overthink everything so it's getting slightly out of hand. But maybe, MAYBE it's just a bad day because my vacay is over and now I SERIOUSLY have to study or else I will be studying the same thing all over again. 

Tomorrow's gonna be a long day. I have to pay my rent, go to the bank and sort out some adult shit I don't quite get, visit gran, pack stuff and leave asap to my apartment and study! I must not forget to visit the library and return some books and pay a fine because I can never return them on time, then I need to visit my law library and get some more books for my final. I will probably forget to do at least one thing because that's just me, always. I need to buy a planner!

Me, in a nutshell...

Soooo... hello? Should I introduce myself first or... 

As you can probably tell from my blog's title, I'm a law student, not in love, maybe a bit crazy, but aren't we all? Sleeping, procrastinating and eating are my hobbies, being spontaneous and slightly stressed out are my ways of living, welcome to my life! 

It's July, almost August now and also vacation time so I figured starting a blog would be a great idea due to my exploding amount of free time I suddenly have. It's not gonna last (the free time thing), but as long as it's there, I will try and write down my random thoughts regarding my experience about being a law student, mostly in a comical way coz that's how I roll! Speaking of that, let's just dive in and make this first blog post a mess....

me, in a nutshell...

Since I started law school I quickly realized hanging out with friends and studying/preparing for lectures don't go well together, especially if you get a call at 8 or 9 in the evening (and your friends are even bigger alcoholics that you are). "I have to study" actually becomes a valid excuse (eff yea!), not just a phrase you used to say to your parents when they asked you to do the laundry. Needless to say, I gave in to the temptation of having a drink or two (or three, or ten, who knows) and then woke up the next day, 15 mins before my lecture, still drunk and unable to live but still managed to survive. Moral of the story - you can do it! (Encouraging words right here *winks*)

 Now is probably the right time I mention I usually prefer to stay in and chill (preferably with my cat), read a book or watch a movie and have a glass of wine than go out with a large group of people - that's why I love having an excuse about being a law student, so convenient! *high five to fellow introverts btw*

Introducing you my Qat real quick, ain't she pretty!!

Great, so from what you've read till now, you probably think I'm a lonely cat lady whose life is a mess and is an alcoholic. Well, you're probably right, but I'm also fun sometimes. 

The other day I (finally) watched The Paper Chase - highly recommend to every (future) law student. Very relatable! I don't know why it took me so long to watch it, but on the other hand, if I did watch it before I went to law school, I'd probably be even more terrified. Oh, the fear of being called on, never gets old. Talking about that, I do, in fact, have a great tip for beating stress and anxiety before you get called on (there's no escaping it), but I'll save it for some other time. As you can see, I love to remind myself about my terrible and/or embarrassing speeches at tutorials and seminars even during holiday... that's called devotion, my friend.

Conclusion: it feels good to write, sure hope I didn't scare you away (I'm really not that bad though).